Careless Faith

Scotty FS Air 1

Fear and faith tend to be polar opposites, fear restrains and holds back, but faith motivates, moves forward, and conquers. Before a skateboarder can grind down a huge handrail, he or she must conquer the fear of it by having faith in their ability to do it. What usually holds us back from trying that handrail, kickflipping those stairs, or committing to that new trick, is that we fear the worst: we don’t want to fall real hard or get hurt. This being so, having faith in our abilities to land the trick is crucial, but it is not everything, we must also lose our care of what could happen if we are to fail. Faith that truly motivates, moves us forward, and conquers our fears, must be completely without care if we are to fail.

The book of Daniel tells a story in Chapter three about three Israelites by the name of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego that are taken out of Israel into Babylon to serve in the king’s courts after Israel is conquered by the Babylonians. Once these three Israelites get to Babylon, King Nebuchadnezzar sets up a statue of himself and makes it a law of the land that all must bow down and worship the image. But of course, these three Israelites serve Yahweh, the God of Israel, so they refuse to bow down to the image. Therefore, because of their disobedience they are taken to the king and are given one last chance to bow down to the image. They are told that if they refuse to bow they will be cast into a fiery furnace and burned alive. To which they respond, “If it be so, our God is able to deliver us from the furnace of blazing fire… But even if He does not, let it be known to you, O king, that we are not going to serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up” (Daniel 3:17-18). In this passage, we see a firm faith in God’s abilities to rescue them from a painful death, but what truly makes the faith of these guys unshakable, is their complete carelessness if God does so or not. Their faith in God is not based on the condition of God rescuing them, but it is a faith that will accept any outcome. They trust in God because He is God, not just because he is powerful and able to rescue them, and this gives them complete freedom from fear. Faith that truly liberates from fear, is a faith that has no care of negative outcome, not just an assurance in God’s abilities or our own.

For the skateboarder, in order to really progress and to do crazy tricks, they must attempt them without any fear of negative outcome, as well as a faith or trust in his or her ability. As a follower of Christ, we truly have no reason to fear any negative outcome as we move forward in faith toward God’s purpose for us. Paul says in Romans 8:28, “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those that love God and are called according to His purpose.” He also says in Philippians 1:21, “To live is Christ, and to die is Gain.” Because we have a promise that any negative outcome will work out for our good, as well as a promise of eternal joy, we truly have no reason not to pursue God and His purpose for us with any fear or concern of what could happen if things don’t go according to plan. The book of Acts is filled with instances where things didn’t go according to plan for the apostles, but they ended up working out for the better. Real, unshakable faith that conquers all fear is this: pursue God and his purposes with all your strength and without any concern of a negative outcome, and if things don’t go according to plan, no need to fret, it will all work out for the good in the end. It is this kind of faith that will lead to the most accomplishment as a follower of Christ, and as a skateboarder.

 

Reflection Questions:

Has there ever been a time when you were afraid to try something, and you ended up getting hurt because you were so fixated on something going wrong? Has there ever been a time when you became so fixated on your short comings, that it held you back from moving forward in your faith and walk with God?

Based on the Fact that Meshach, Shadrach, and Abednego weren’t 100% sure if God was going to deliver them from the fiery furnace, what does that tell us about what it means to have faith in God? Should we expect times of suffering?

Do you think these three guys would have questioned the justice of God if He allowed them to die in the furnace?

Should we always expect God to bail us out of trouble when doing the right thing is what put us there?

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Fear is a Liar

FEAR IS A LIAR

Fear is a weird emotion, it causes me to over think things I wish I didn’t, and it tends to hold me back from things that I wish I could just do. Whenever I’m trying to get a trick on film at a stair set or a handrail, I tend to over think everything that can possibly go wrong in the process. I think things like, “the ground is rough, it will probably scrape up my elbows and hands real bad; I might land primo (which is when you land on your board sideways) and mess up my ankles or wrists; my hip hurts, what if I fall on it and make it worst?” And all this thinking and analyzing, which is just a result of fear, just ends up getting in the way and making it harder for me to “just do” the trick.  When I can finally get the courage to try the trick and overcome the fear, I soon realize that all the silly fears I had are really nothing to be afraid of, the ground doesn’t hurt as much as I think it does, landing primo doesn’t hurt as much as I think it will, and my hip can take more falls than I think it can.  My fear of pain just gets in the way of the things that I really want to do or accomplish on my skateboard, and when I can get the courage to finally try the tricks, I soon realize that the pain I felt like I was going to experience was blown way out of proportion in my mind.

As I’ve been thinking about all this, I came across some things in my relationship with God that entail the same problems. When it comes to sharing my faith, or even just letting someone know in a casual conversation that I serve Christ, a lot of the time I start thinking too much and start developing these fears of, “what if they think I’m lame? Or what if they won’t like me anymore?” When I finally do work up the courage to tell someone about my faith, I soon realize that they either do still accept me, or being outcasted isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Once we get the courage to overcome fear, it will almost always be followed up by the phrase, “hmm, that wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be.”

I saw a picture a little while ago that had a phrase written on a wall that said, “fear is a liar,” and that is basically what all this boils down too. Fear causes us to think and behave in an irrational manner. It causes us to blow things way out of proportion, and it tends to hold us back from the things that we really want to do. As a skateboarder, if I know I can do something, the over thinking and the fear is just a lie that holds me back. As a Christian, fearing rejection for sharing my faith isn’t really anything to be scared of. If I love God, I will love his people, and if I love His people I don’t need to hesitate from sharing the joy and peace that I’ve found in Christ. Paul says in 2 Timothy 1:7, For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and a sound mind.” Fear gives us a distorted view of things and of how we expect everything to pan out. Like children afraid to look under their bed or in their closet at night because the boogeyman is in there. Once we overcome our fears, reality sets in and we soon realize that we never had anything to be afraid of.

 

Reflection Questions:

Think of a time when you were afraid to do something and how liberating it felt when you were finally able to overcome it? Were the results ever as bad as you thought they would be?

1 John 4:18 says, “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.” Has letting yourself be overcome with fear ever felt like a self-inflicted punishment? How can love help push us through our fears and to overcome that feeling?

How can we be aware when our fears are giving us a distorted reality and to make sure we overcome them before its gets to out of hand?

 

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Testimony – Part 2: the Journey

After my rededication to God it seemed like skating got easier and more enjoyable, and I’m not sure if I exactly know why.  Maybe I started to feel like I was skating for the Lord now instead of myself, which took some of the pressure off and allowed me to just skate and have fun, and to progress without worrying so much about “making it” in skating.  I guess I felt that whether or not I made it in skateboarding, God was going to be there to take care of me, and this took a lot of pressure off and made skating easier and more fun.  Before I gave my life to Christ, I thought that if I didn’t go pro and make it in skateboarding than I was going to have a miserable life.  Christ changed that apparently, and it’s an interesting paradox that ceasing to stress so much about going pro made me progress faster and enjoy it more.  My new found love for Christ had purified my love for skateboarding, it became more of an unconditional love instead of a love based on the conditions of getting sponsors and going pro so I could be happy.  Christ had blessed me with contentment and peace of mind, I didn’t need to go pro to be happy, it was like I had found the source of peace and happiness in Christ.  And what better place to look for happiness than in the one that created happiness? Skateboarding or anything else we do can never carry the huge burden of supplying our peace of mind and a lasting happiness, only the creator can carry that burden and supply the remedy.  And because that burden was no longer put on skateboarding (which can’t, and was never meant to carry that) and put on something that could carry it, skateboarding and life in general became more enjoyable.

A little bit after my rededication to God, my friend Edmund became Team Manager of Robedom Clothing, (a small clothing company that a guy in his church started) and I got my first clothing sponsor.  My first package was seven shirts, and after that I periodically got a sweatshirt, a hat, more shirts, and a bunch of pants.  My first pair of stretchy pants were Robedom pants and I’ve never been able to wear pants that didn’t stretch since then (if your not familiar with the skateboard industry, stretchy pants are big in skateboarding).  We got our friends Josh and Will on the team as well and it started to feel like a legit sponsor. The brand was getting in shops, we were throwin out product at skateparks, we were getting product to give to our friends, we were getting ads in magazines, and we were filming a lot for a video.  Everyone that had a part in the company was constantly putting in work, the owner and his partners were constantly working on graphics and talking to shops, and the skate team was constantly filming and getting photos.  I thought for sure that this was it, I thought, “this company is about to blow up and I’m about to blow up with it, it won’t be long till I have a sponsor for everything and be a Pro skateboarder.” What was happening with Robedom, and how it seemed like skateboarding got easier after my rededication, I thought God had destined me for Pro skating. And then one day Edmund and the owner had a falling out and the team was over. Seemed like overnight, all my hopes with Robedom and going pro for them came crashing down. I still kept filming a lot, pursuing sponsors, and building my hopes for going pro, even to the point that I started to once again look to skateboarding for my source of peace and happiness. I started missing church and slacking on making sure my relationship with God was developing, because skating and filming was becoming my number one priority.  Edmund and my homie Andy helped keep me from going to far in that direction, but I ended up having another wake up call after a youth conference and I felt like I needed to take a break from filming, get my priorities straight, and put a little more focus on school so I didn’t become a 25 year old dude, still working a dead-end job, convinced that I was destined for professional skateboarding.  I ended up moving out of my hometown and I moved in with my mom in Porterville (a little town outside of Fresno) and started to feel like sponsors and professional skateboarding was a dying dream.  I started getting what we would call “grown up dreams” instead, like first I wanted to be a firefighter, then a radiologist, then a pastor, and then a writer, and then I eventually came back a little bit to my roots and developed a dream to be a skateboard company owner.

It took me 3 or 4 years to realize that I couldn’t completely walk away from skateboarding as a career choice, so instead of trying to make it in radiology or ministry, I thought I would just start my own board company and use skateboarding as an humanitarian relief effort, combine my passion for skateboarding with ministry.  I’ve seen a lot of joy come from skateboarding so I feel like it can be used to ease some of the plight in 2nd and 3rd world countries.  God blessed me with skateboarding, so I want to bless the world with it too.  I have dreams of starting skate camps and using my company to donate product to other skate camps that are used to minister and bless the community.  And the team of Pros and Ams that I would have can come to the camp every so often and do demos and minister and hang out with the kids.  The fact of the matter is that I love skateboarding, and if I can’t go pro then I’ll find another way to make a living from it.  I tried pursuing careers that had nothing to do with skateboarding and every one of them seemed to come up short and unfulfilling.  So I don’t think God ever intended to take skateboarding away from me, just to show me that I can love it in a different way and without all the spotlight of being Pro, and that I can use skateboarding as a means to serve and bless the world.

A few months ago a sponsorship by Embassador Skateboards fell into my lap, and now it seems that maybe that old dream of going pro might actually be a reality again.  Being a part of the company, I’m also basically getting free schooling on how to run a board company.  I get to travel and do demos now, the company just paid for me and a few other riders to go from LA to Seattle, visiting skate churches, putting on contests, and doing a lot of filming.  All this traveling and being in the spotlight has made that dream of Pro skating arise a little bit again, but we’ll see if this ends up being a second shot at going pro, or if it’s just a means to fulfill my dreams of owning my own board company and using skateboarding as an humanitarian relief effort and a ministry throughout the world.  Either way, I’m blessed and God is better than I could ever imagine.  I’ve tried giving up on God, and I’ve tried giving up on skateboarding, my purpose is in both and it’s both that keeps me going in life.  God of course means more to me, but skateboarding will always be a big part of me and a big part of why I’m on this earth.  So the adventure continues and is far from over; and whether or not I become a skateboard company owner, or a Pro skater, or both, bottom line is that I love God and I love skateboarding, and I look forward to seeing how God uses the two for one purpose. Future’s looking bright, and I can’t wait to see how it unfolds.

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Testimony – Part 1: The Prequel

I ride for a Christian skateboard company now called Embassador Skateboards, and a big part of what we do is share testimonies at demos and other forms of outreaches; and since I’m always listening to other riders share their testimonies, it got me thinking about my own.

I grew up in somewhat of a christian home, and like most kids, once High School came I began to drift away from my Christian roots and started getting into partying. On the weekends, my friends and I would go skate and film all day, then party all night. And besides the usual side effects of this lifestyle, like extreme highs and lows, depression, and loneliness; I ended up getting Mono (a virus you get from kissing that causes severe headaches, loss of appetite, strep throat, inflamed spleen, and fever; and it lasts for about 3 weeks). And on top of that, friends and acquaintances of mine were getting jumped at parties, and people also starting bringing guns, and would fire them off into the air as like a warning shot. All this made me and a few other of my friends feel like we needed some extra protection, so we found a guy that was selling brass knuckles and a couple of us got some and started carrying them around with us everywhere we went. Luckily though, none of us ever had to use them. Mono, my homies getting jumped, and people firing guns off at parties, opened my eyes to the reality that stuff can really go down in that lifestyle. We always hear about people getting shot or jumped, or about people getting STD’s or other types of viruses from living the party life, but we never think it will happen to us. As soon as I began to see that it could happen to me, I started building a desire to get out of that lifestyle. It took about a year of wanting a change before any change finally came, but this desire was the beginning of a year or two long process that would eventually lead me back to my Christian roots.

I was eventually able to quit partying thanks to a few friends that also wanted to quit, so instead of partying after skating all day, we would just go kick it at someone’s house, watch some skate videos, drink some beer and smoke some weed. We would go to an occasional party but nothing like before. During this time, I hit another turning point when my mom decided to drug test me because my car smelt like weed. Getting caught smoking weed wasn’t what got me to go through another change, it was what I had to do to not get caught. I had my friend Ferny (who never smoked weed) pee in a bag for me, and then his brother Rudie drove me home. And on the car ride home I had to keep the bag of piss by the heater so it would keep warm (the drug test won’t work if the pee isn’t warm, if it’s not warm than it’s obviously not fresh). When I got home I was able to convince my mom that I should take the test now, so I went into the bathroom with the bag of piss in my sweatshirt pocket, poured it into the cup and gave it to her; and sure enough, I passed. The fact that my life had succumbed to me carrying around a bag of piss in my pocket was enough for me to realize that my life needed another change, so with this, I never smoked weed again and started to drift away from certain friends a little bit. I would still skate with a lot of them, I just wouldn’t stick around for the after party or participate in the “puff puff pass.”

Around this time I started skating with my friend Edmund a lot, who was a real solid Christian, and I also started hanging out with my friend Andy a lot who grew up with Edmund and went to the same church as him. Instead of my usual routine of skating all day, then partying all night; I would go skate all day (usually with Edmund) then go chill at Andy’s house with him and our friend Jeremy (who was also starting to pursue spiritual/Christian things). And we would be up all night talking about God, philosophy, and all kinds of deep stuff. During this time, Edmund took me with him to Vegas to go skate, and while we were there we had a long conversation about Christianity, what it means to follow Christ and be a genuine Christian, and all the stuff that people do and say to avoid Christ. When we got back from Vegas, Andy’s mom invited me to church with them, and after the sermon the pastor asked if there was anybody who desired to rededicate their life to Christ (which was the only time I ever heard him do that after a year of going there), so I raised my hand and officially rededicated my life to Christ. Then began the journey of a life fully committed to Christ and His purposes.

What kept me away from Christ for all those years, was that I wanted to party and do my own thing without anybody telling me what to do. It took me a little while to realize that when Scripture and people that genuinely cared about my well being told me not to get wasted, make out with random girls, or do things I knew I shouldn’t; it was so I wouldn’t get Mono, have to carry around a bag of piss in my pocket, or have other crappy things happen to me that came with that lifestyle. One of the major things I learned through my stubbornness was that, to say, “it won’t happen to me,” is more often than not a delusion and a lie. If it can happen to someone else it can happen to me, I have to either accept that and the consequences that come, or change my lifestyle so I can prevent it from happening to me.

As a Christian, I’ve learned to always look for the lesson and the good that comes through hardships. To be cliche, “there’s always light at the end of the tunnel,” no righteous or God-fearing person ever suffers in vain. Life with God has been an adventure since day one. Part two will have the details of this adventure, but for now, I’ll leave you with this – I looked for adventure in partying and other things that didn’t involve God, but I found it in the last place I ever thought to look, the One that created adventure.

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Giving stuff away at the skate park

I was at a skatepark today, and after I had skated for a while a kid asked me if I had an extra board that I could sale or give away,  so him and his homies followed me to my car and I ended up giving away 2 boards, 2 sets of wheels, and a pair of trucks to him and his homies.  I’ve given away my old product to my friends before, but I’ve never given it away to kids I’ve never met.  This was a lot different then giving an old board to a homie, these kids’ faces lit up and we’re so happy to have my old stuff, I couldn’t believe it, I’ve never seen anyone so happy to have someone’s old stuff.  It made me wish I was a pro skater or something with all kinds of product that I could just give away.

Skateboarding is probably the greatest thing the Lord has ever blessed me with (besides himself) and it’s such a good feeling to feel like your passing on that blessing to someone else instead of just trying to be the best skateboarder you can be.  I’m working on getting a board company launched in a few years with some people and I’m looking forward to being able to do more stuff like this, but with brand new product instead of my old worn out stuff.  A big part of the company’s purpose will be to bless the world through skateboarding, because the Most High has blessed us so greatly through it, and as time goes on we’ll find out more what that’ll look like. As a side note, if I can find all this joy and fulfillment in blessing these kids, it makes me wonder how much more the good Lord love’s to bless his children.

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Blessing from a Homeless guy

I met a Homeless guy today named Mathew that ended up being a pretty cool experience.  Our conversation began with him calling me over to talk about a homeless shelter, and we ended up talking for a bit, making small talk and such; and I know that for pretty much everybody (myself included) sees homeless people as people in need of our blessing, or in need of our handouts, and never the other way around.  Homeless people depend on people to take care of them, rescue missions and homeless shelters are designed for that purpose.  I have never felt like a homeless guy could bless me with anything, and I’m sure that’s a very common feeling for everybody.  But this guy Mathew prayed for me, offered to give me all the money someone gave him as we we’re talking, wanted to buy me a beer sometime, and made sure there was nothing else he could do for me.  I’ve never come across a homeless guy that was so selfless; a very humbling experience.

This made me think of how someone that would be considered beneath us can always bless us and teach us something.  A teacher can always learn from and be blessed by his students, and a pastor from his congregation.  Even Jesus (God in the flesh) is blessed by His creation and is reminded of good faith in the account of the Centurion in Luke 7:1-10; the Father of creation is blessed by Abraham and reminded of good faith in Genesis 22:15-19 also.  No one is ever to above someone to receive a blessing or learn/be reminded of something valuable spiritually.  Thanks and Praise to the Father

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